Made up - - for the most part

WEll me an my 2 girlfriends made up but me an Brad are still fighting and that upsets me the most. I mean I could handle the girls being mad at me but now that Brad is mad at me and wont talk to me at all its kills me, i mean he was my BEST friend. I hate to loose him.

Update

Me and Javiane are not going out, we haven't been for a LONG time, hell right now we aren't even friends. Actually I really have no friends left I am fighting with them all. Even my best friend Brad. Today I confessed to having sex with a guy to my foster mom. So basically i feel like shit and am waiting to grow balls to kill myself. So that is your short and sweet update.

My girlfriend....

That is right people I said girlfriend. Yeah I am dating a girl and I am girl. I know some of you may not agree with that but. I don't care this girl is amazing, i mean she is everything you could want in a partner. I am happy I have her. just thought i would let you all know that.

Bullimia

OK, I throw up after I eat junk food, or if my stomach hurts, and now my friend is trying to say I'm bulimic, and I am not!!! I find it different, I don't throw up eveytime I eat just when I eat junk food (cause I feel bad about it) and when my stomach hurts ( because throwing up makes me feel better). I just wish she would quit saying I am bulimic cause I AM NOT. THERE IS A DIFFERENCE!!!!!

Bored

Well now that the older foster sister has moved out I am happy, but now I am extremely bored. I have no one to talk to and nothing to do but stay in my room or watch T.V. or use the computer which all are so boring at times. I am not trying to complain but It suckz to be 16 and have nothing to do and nowhere to go. I have a bf but there is no way in hell i am bringing him ove to my house #1 He already gets made fun of an ppl don't even knwo him #2 its a Mad house #3 ppl will make fun of him. And I will not bring any friends over for the same 2nd reason lol I know it sounds bad but Hell.

No kids for me at 16

Well the boyfriend that wanted to have kids right now, I dumped!! Yay me! Yeah it got really annoying that is all he talked about all day, everyday was how he wanted to have kids and personally it scare me so I did what was best a left him. Now I have a new man we will call him by his nickname "White Chocolate", i really like him, and he doesnt want kids rigth now so that is a plus, lets hopwe this one works out. And i like him

Eating Disorder

OK in my house, there is a problem because my foster mom and Geo says everyone eats to much and when they say that they make me feel shitty, i wont say NE thing , But i have been doing the same thing I use to I throw up every time i eat, i just feel fat a worthless. So from now on I am not eating at all. If I get sent to the hospital then so be it, that way there is no more complaints about people eating to much and i wont feel so bad. I mean I don't think i eat alot but they make it apparent i do, so i quit!!!